Feb 7, 2009 11:39 PM
i really do not wish to look back upon this period of time and feel only regret. i can certainly recall periods of time where i feel like i've wasted my life away, especially j1 and hold few fond memories of those times. while i try to live life with the least amount of regret as possible, perfection cannot be achieved and the inevitable does happen. those memories are tucked away in the far corner of my mind, never to make an apperance again. i hope the decisions i make now won't lead to a similar episode.
my mind's playing mindgames with me, making me overanalyse the smallest detail and causing me to doubt myself, to wonder what the actual situation is. it really is exhausting and sometimes i wish there was a switch to just tune my mind out. i almost wish i didn't care, almost. 'cause i know deep inside, i'd rather.